well it was yesterday's dinner. with my cousins + their gf's and bf's + two newly met friends.
venue: Tamarind Springs and my favourites were Basil Chicken, Duck Omelette, and River Prawn.

dinner at mamak.

this is just a random day.

Capati, two small vege dishes, soya bean. Not helping to lose weight. Feeling slightly low, lack of omega3 maybe, or sunlight. Great view of klcc tho.

a horrendously charming weekend

some doors are meant to be kept closed. when a chapter is concluded and closed, it is usually wise to not go back and open it. then you painfully discover how unhealed you are. and everything comes crashing down like an enormous avalanche, taking everything with it...

Normality is overrated..
then again so is the extraordinary

"And so it goes, and so it goes

And You're the only one who knows..."

- 'And So It Goes' by Billy Joel

Radio, Play My Favourite Song

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so we can fly away
We gotta make a decision
We leave tonight or live and die this way
- Fast Car, Tracy Chapman -

I never conquered,
rarely came16 just held such better days,
days when I still felt alive.
- Adam's Song, Blink 182 -

When the day is long and the night,
The night is yours alone
When you're sure you've had enough of this life,
Well hang on.
- Everybody Hurts, REM -

random.random.random.

It's a gorgeous day outside.
I can tell because I'm indoors, looking out the window and watching the world pass by without me.

and it just started raining too.
fyi, its 4.23 am.
and it scares me that im not asleeep yet.

She could change everything about her using colors bold and bright
But all the colors mix together to grey
And it breaks her heart
- Grey Street, Dave Matthews Band -

Seeing is believing & other non-conclusive truths

It's amazing how the simplest statements
can reveal the greatest truth.

And just like that, it becomes clear. You notice things that were staring you in the face. You look back in retrospect and trace the way things all came together. You see the present and understand it as a culmination of the past and future colliding in the moment, at this time....then nothingness.

Just a clear quiet nothingness. You hold your breath and suddenly you don't need to breathe. Everything seems suspended, numb, but strangely not entirely unpleasant. You can see things now from a distance and in its entirety. It makes sense.I like those moments. Too bad they don't last very long.


I like those moments.

Too bad they don't last very long.You blink and it's over. By the next breath you could have sworn it was never there to begin with. Then you return to wondering what it would be like if you really could see the big picture.

You're back at the begining but it's different somehow. There's a knowing now yet there's still this element of uncertainty - an unpredictability that intrigues us.That's why we do it. We want to know. We never really do in the end yet sometimes, if we're lucky, we get glimpses of truth triggered by accidently moments of honesty... and to some extent, that's enough.

And that's why we do it - to know it's there.

this is the malaysia i know/ live in.

just a random collection of the streets and places in kl. yes, im a malaysian. sometimes proud of it. and mostly just used to it. hoping to make change in it one day.

i dont have a title for the random post.

it's a tuesday.11.53 am. and just 12 efing days away from trials.
suppose to be doing my perdagangan just when i realised i still have my sej form 4 to go.
i cant think of a reason to stop except for the fact that i rather sleep.

this post has all the potential of being my last one of this month and maybe the next.
i have to stay away though i reli enjoy it.

this are the moments u just want to be 16 again.

just some random pics while i was bored past two days.

just when i meant it the most, u thought i was lying.

tired with a capital T

Wash. Rinse. Dry. Repeat.
And the cycle repeats itself.

If I am not making real difference, I should not be there at all.

I can't understand why people are frightened of new ideas. I'm frightened of the old ones.

ohw well. updates.
yes derek made it to my place and fullfilled my favour.
i owe u lunch.ok?

so after the meeting i took off to starbucks while waiting for dad and sis to pick me home.
and here are some pics i took while waiting.

and oh yea. also went to british india.

and secretly took a couple of shots there.

that's mostly what happened.and if u'd excuse me, my sis wants to go check her facebook.

lee chun lam

haha. derek.
i have something to say about him.
1. he is a nice, helping but always retarded guy.

i got a text from kim saying prom meeting is on 5/8/09 at 3 in great eastern mall.
so i showed it to my mum.
she said she wont be able to fetch me there.
pave, i have a appoinment. sorry, hun.

ting!!!

i had an idea. i texted derek. he said SURE.
so the dead o alive day is today.

if u dont hear from me again, you know whom to find.

btw,

goood morning

selamat pagi

kalai vanakam

Zhao shang hao

so if u'd excuse me, i need to go brush my teeth.

chasing down the days

i'm still wrapped in that bubble of surrealism -
there's no way i expected to be here, getting so attached to the people in my life now, doing the things i do.

sounds corny, but it's not just in my head anymore; everything i want to do is out here, i'm living them out. struggling, surviving, always a step closer.

someone asked me the other day how i manage, juggling everything.
i can't. something's got to give.so it has.


seems like a bad time to quit then.